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I will not Bow

from Growing Pains by Christine Kammerer

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You cannot know for sure if the trauma will completely dissapear. Perhaps it will always be with you in some way. But we can learn to heal ourselves and manage it. This is where "I will not Bow" comes in. This song is about relief, and it is a playful recognition of what life is.

In this song I vow to not let my inner saboteur get the best of me. When everything becomes too much, I will take a moment to talk to my loved ones or "take flight in tune".

lyrics

I will not bow
Text and music by Christine Kammerer

First there was a thought,
Then the thought grew up
Into an idea
I filled with love
Infatuated, held it to the sun
I couldn’t really grasp
What I had done

Nudged it out
Like a baby bird on wing
Praying to God it would fly
Or would sing
But it crashed to the ground
I was sad, felt small,
Saying to myself
You were never good
At anything at all

But it feels like I’m turning
Turning south,
I know there’s a yearning for something to get out
Yes, there is a tune in the corner of my mouth
Eager to grow, eager to get out

But,
I will not bow
I will not break
I tell you, I’ve learned
From all my mistakes
I will not yield,
I will not stop
I’ll be sure to tell you,
When I’ve had enough
I will not bow

Then one day a new thought
Sparked in me
But I dared not to give it life
Or set it free
Wait, fear was my story
For way too long
That’s actually why,
I decided on writing this song

Cause,
I will not bow
I will not break
I tell you, I’ve learned
From all my mistakes
I will not yield,
I will not stop
I’ll be sure to tell you,
When I’ve had enough

For now, I take flight in tune
Caress my soul
Search hard for truths
I can share, and unfold
I don’t want “if only’s”,
“what if’s” or
“it might have been”
When I grow old
I wanna know that I’ve been livin’

So, I take flight in tune
Caress my soul
Search hard for truths
I can share, and unfold
I don’t want “if only’s”,
“what if’s” or
“it might have been”
When I grow old
I wanna know that I’ve been livin’

So I will not bow
I will not break
I tell you, I’ve learned
From all my mistakes
I will not yield,
I will not stop
I’ll be sure to tell you, when I’ve had enough

I will not bow, no
This I my vow
I will not be lead on
By my crippling self-doubt
Just keep on smiling
Keep on believing
I’m worthy of the love
That I am receiving
So, I will not bow

credits

from Growing Pains, track released May 8, 2020
Christine Kammerer (vocal, keys, harmonies and guitar)
Kim Rasmussen (bass)
Andrew Warwick (percussion)

(c) 2020 Christine Kammerer

Recorded and mixed by Kim Rasmussen // Audio Smith Productions
Mastered by David Elberling
Photo by Qvist Foto

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Christine Kammerer Scotland, UK

Christine Kammerer, a critically acclaimed, award-nominated artist, is known for her versatile talents as a singer, multi- instrumentalist, songwriter, and composer. In June 2024 her debut album “Echoes of North” will be released.

Kammerer’s music is a symphonic fusion of Nordic and Celtic folk soundscapes. A universe which moves from tales of human nature to stories of folklore and myth. ... more

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