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Why I Cry

from Growing Pains by Christine Kammerer

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What happens after you think you are on the other side of the trauma? After you've made room for the new you? Uncertainty. Existential anxiety. Yearning to regain that feeling of home within you. Growth cannot be without having to navigate within a state of uncertainty for a while. A state which calls out for compassion and love, mainly from yourself.

Why I Cry holds space for the state of turmoil, whilst revealing the task before you: discovering and reconnecting to your inner self. Your home within. That grounded place from which you meet the world with all that you are.

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Why I cry
Text and music by Christine Kammerer

Now I’ve been out to find what I think I need
Not knowing what it may be
Where am I going, where do I belong
Just try to find my way song by song

I tried to keep my dream in a tight embrace
But I know it’s beyond control, it’s not a race
But I get a sinking feeling, just going with the flow
You know it’s hard making room, letting go

When the lights are shining up
We only hear what’s sung or said
And all the long nights there we tend to forget

That’s when I, I cry by myself cause I’m lonely
But only when I’m on my own
I cry cause I don’t think that I know me,
And I just wanna feel at home
Wanna find that place inside where I belong

There’s a yearning inside for release
When I sleep it haunts the fabric of my dreams
But I’m on a soul-shocking, fast-track ignoring the inner plea
Of that little girl who begs “can I be me”

When the lights are shining up
I’m afraid you’ll say
I’m in the wrong when I do it my way

That’s why I, I cry by myself cause I’m lonely
I’m only me when I’m alone
I cry cause I don’t let you see me
No, I gotta get out of the undertow,
And find that place inside where I belong

Afraid I’m not enough being me
But it’s only inside voices it’s not real
I see it now,
Common darkness, common pain
But I choose to rise in flames

Now, darkness always bore the light
And in a flash, I feel
How my voice is freed, and I become real

No longer cry by myself, I’m done a’drifting
I, I found where I belong
In solemn notes of loneliness
I found my voice is my home,
No longer cry by myself, I’m done a’drifting
I, I found where I belong
In solemn notes of loneliness
I found my voice is my home,
Where it’s aflame I will live, ever grow

credits

from Growing Pains, track released May 8, 2020
Christine Kammerer (vocal, harmonies and guitar)
Kim Rasmussen (bass)

(c) 2020 Christine Kammerer

Recorded and mixed by Kim Rasmussen // Audio Smith Productions
Mastered by David Elberling
Photo by Qvist Foto

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Christine Kammerer Scotland, UK

Christine Kammerer, a critically acclaimed, award-nominated artist, is known for her versatile talents as a singer, multi- instrumentalist, songwriter, and composer. In June 2024 her debut album “Echoes of North” will be released.

Kammerer’s music is a symphonic fusion of Nordic and Celtic folk soundscapes. A universe which moves from tales of human nature to stories of folklore and myth. ... more

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